A friend sent me a post the other day about the mineral show in Saint-Marie-aux-Mines, France — one of the largest in the world.
She said, “I can’t believe you guys are missing this.”
She had no idea that that show — Saint-Marie — was the one that broke me.
Six years ago, I had planned the most epic trip. Not just a quick stop. A full-on two-week European tour, with the mineral show at the heart of it. Flights. Hotels. Rental car. Every detail was booked.
It was the only thing keeping me going during a season of intense transition. I was exhausted — emotionally, physically, energetically. I’d been pushing for months. Suppressing emotions. Holding everything together with sheer force. And that trip was the one thing I let myself look forward to.
At the time, I was working with my fiancé in his company, and just a couple of weeks before we were set to leave, he came into my office, stood behind me, and said gently:
“I don’t think we should go. I don’t feel right about us leaving the company right now.”
My body froze.
I didn’t turn around. I couldn’t.
My eyes were already full of tears.
My chest was tight.
My hands were shaking as I silently began canceling each reservation.
Inside, I was falling apart — but I was too afraid to let it show.
Too afraid to be seen in that kind of vulnerability.
When I finished, he tried to console me. But still unable to look at him, I said with a shaky voice:
“Please… give me a minute… and shut the door.”
And the second it clicked shut, I collapsed into myself.
I didn’t just grieve the trip.
I grieved everything I had been holding in.
The years of pushing. The pressure to hold it all together.
The belief that if I could just make it to France, everything would finally feel okay.
The moment you break is often the moment you begin
That day was a turning point.
I didn’t just grieve the loss of the trip — I grieved the version of me who thought she had to earn rest. Who built a life on pushing. Who postponed peace until the work was “done.” (Spoiler: It never is.)
I cycled through all of it: disbelief, anger, resentment, blame.
And eventually, I looked in the mirror and asked the question that changed everything:
What if I played a role in building the life that’s now breaking me?
That moment — as painful as it was — became the start of everything I now teach.
The lie: struggle = worth
The truth: alignment = power
When you’re deep in the Relentless Builder * phase, it’s hard to see the cost.
You’re high-functioning, high-achieving — and secretly running on fumes.
You’ve tied your worth to performance, your value to sacrifice.
And the idea of letting it be easy? Feels suspicious. Like you’re cheating the system.
But the truth is:
You were never meant to prove your value through burnout.
You were meant to embody your magic — without apology.
Three energetic shifts that changed everything for me:
- I stopped assigning meaning to the struggle
Just because it’s hard doesn’t mean it’s worthy. I started asking: Does this feel aligned? Or am I just trying to earn gold stars for my suffering? - I stopped fearing ease
I had to retrain my nervous system to see stillness and joy as safe. Not a luxury — but a requirement for the life I wanted to live. - I started choosing power over performance
True power isn’t loud. It’s rooted. Calm. Certain. And it doesn’t need to be proven — it just is.
And now? Full circle. Full alignment.
Here I am, six years later — launching the Inner Magic Activation Kits (details coming soon✨)
They’re designed to help people do what I wish I had done back then:
Slow down. Align. Reconnect with their own energy. Tap into the magic within — and let the crystals amplify that connection.
And Saint-Marie was just wrapped up last week.
But this time, I’m not grieving.
I’m celebrating.
Because I finally let go of the lie that struggle equals worth.
✨ Let it be easier.
🔥 Let it be aligned.
❤️ Let it be yours — even when it doesn’t hurt.
This is your permission slip to stop building from burnout and start creating from your Inner Magic.
*Read more about Inner Voice Patterns and how they shape your reality here.
